On Ellen's email

i have a family. that is shattered around the globe. a mother in sweden and a sister in uk... the rest are in jordan.

i have a mother who keeps asking about me and loves me and doesn't want to be away from me and follows me even when I'm not around

i have a sister although married and expecting a baby and swamped with the busy life in uk doesn't stop missing talking to me and checking on me and talks to me just like she is in her room in her bed and I'm laying next to her.

i have a mother who keeps on trying to make me feel like nothing changed, like i still have the love and support and emotions she used to fulfill when she was here,

she still wants to support me financially when i need and when i don't need.. just to support me and just make me feel that she gives me

I have a huge tremendous gap of feelings that no one can fill and every now and then reality keeps on reminding me how hard it is to really miss someone, love someone and leave someone.

to you... ellen and joanna ..